"So What Do You Believe In?"~ A thought by Sinbad the Sailor Man

Poetry: Reflections of a Discontinued Warrior

"So What Do You Believe In?"

Last night the tear drops fell, as I screamed in utter anger
Although fast a sleep I was, she was wide awake and beside herself 

With fears and tears

That I would go and leave her

She knew not where this was coming from

Or what had brought it on, or what it was

That which I was going through

Or what I was going to do

But, as usual she placed the blame upon herself and left me

See the pain it comes from somewhere deep within

Although she could not know it,  because it was hidden

In my deep, dark, and sorted past

I have taken many lives, and now I am alone at last I

In a protectors role, it is some times necessary to over look

Some of these takings, they were out of mercy, but, yet the last that I took

It was just, and not in or of my nature, It happened so unexpectedly

Quickly drawn upon by friendly fire, by a Gate Keeper

I took that young mans life

Before he could even squeeze the trigger

See he was in love with a young Navy WAVE

Who was being pressured by a Figure Head

I respected this man dearly

But, these thoughts of discontent

I did get wind of, and i turned my head
Now this young man is dead

By my hand but, the Commander he lives on
though my soul it be torn, I was reborn

Now it is only shown, while in my bed

When I am fast a sleep

My demons I alone, “They” I must keep

I was making advancements in my field of course

I swallowed many foolish lies, of Duty and of Honor

Though there are many of us who do it well

Some of us, must go through a living hell

Living secrete lives, and when we are under stress

From our daily living, up sneaks our misgivings 

They attack us, when and where we are most vulnerable
In our dreams, they hide buried in our subconscious minds

Where the truth will always hunt us down

Weather it, for it maybe true or it maybe falsified
Or even a down right lie

But, yet!

This punishment we earn, doing that what we believe in
[The right to Truth, Life, and the Pursuit of Happiness]

Freedom rings for those who dare to hear it

And wish to achieve it

Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray

My prey passes me by, and my secretes keep

Let no one enter in

Least they be neutralized

The secrete is the young man did not commit suicide

His life was taken by my hand

And the facts lie hid and buried

In contented lies

 I was let go under doctors lies, and alibi’s

And now I live a life of discontent

So what do you believe in?

A thought by Sinbad the Sailor Man

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